1. jetaimemiamor:

    i was at rehearsal today.

    and.

    i maybe sorta kinda did some bad stuff.

    to myself.

    that i promised i wouldn’t do anymore.

    but after spending twenty minutes tracing the veins in my arm, i had to cut it open, just to see that i’m alive.

    i’m sorry shane.

     I think we’ve discussed this before, Ashley. Talk to you about it tomorrow , then?

  2. “Until your heart stops beating.”
  3. jetaimemiamor:

    shanelovey:

    DramaDramaAsh (11:01:39 PM): it’s just funny how some random pixels on a screen can make you cry or make you laugh, make you happy or push you to self-harm.

    No truer words have ever been said.

    I agree wholeheartedly, m’dear.

    Let’s remember, people have real feelings, even if it is the internet.

     I most definitely told Shane this. =D

     Where’ve you been, love? I haven’t talked to you in ages it seems. <3

  4. And right now I’m in the mood to just not bother with anything

    Truly, your depression is catching, my love.

  5. Why are you still here?

    I gave up on myself a long time ago.

  6. And sometimes I think

    I suffocate others with my need to be listened to, even if it’s only for a second. I just need to know someone cares, but then at the same time I wish nobody did so I could leave without any regrets.

  7. DramaDramaAsh (11:01:39 PM): it’s just funny how some random pixels on a screen can make you cry or make you laugh, make you happy or push you to self-harm.

    No truer words have ever been said.

    I agree wholeheartedly, m’dear.

    Let’s remember, people have real feelings, even if it is the internet.

  8. My faults are many, and I'll never claim that I have none. I love boys, Barbie, Russel, Jessica, Ellie, a guy that I don't talk to anymore, Torben, Katherine, Abi, Rachel, Brandon, Skylar, many other people, no chemo days, mail, dancing and swimming. I've been taught that I should not waste my life, nor should I waste the lives of others. So I won't. I'm a hyperpolyglot, a dancer, a cancer patient, a boyfriend, a best friend, a mess, a contradiction, a bundle of nerves, a scuba diver, a cancer fighter, a screw-up, a goof, a love of someone else's life sometimes. I'm scared of the end of October for reasons you can't even imagine, you fragile, beautiful soul. Treat your body like a temple, follow my mum's advice and remember you are motherfucking loved no matter what.

    AIM: shanelovey